Closed...What you had opened!

I closed

what you opened

I had to close

What you opened

My heart bleeding

Sliced by your lies

My arteries 

Cut by your false promises

Blood kept flowing

No attempt made to stop it

I tried not to get hurt

Yet no bandaid ever surfaced

You are nice

So am I

Maybe thats the reason why

I had to die

Praise

Once in a while

Everybody needs praise

Praise in the form of words

Praise in the form of care

It need not be precious gift of words

Just a simple nice word will do

It need not be an expensive gift

Just some time to spare will do

It need not be extravagant act

Just a tight hug will do

As once in a while

everybody needs praise !

Just another girl !

You were supposed to listen to what she had to say
Judge her after listening to the whole story
But you were too busy for that!

Too busy to hear what she has stay
Too busy to notice how she has been through the day!

Fun and joy of the moment
is the only thing you care for
At then end you will choose 'Her' over her
And she will be just another girl!

She doesn't know the tactics
the tantrums to woo guys
She doesn't and can't manipulate moves
to make them stay close!

And now she just don't care

Not anymore!

For she is just another girl to you !

If you are listening .... Listen Carefully!

Dear Sir
It's not a game
With feelings and emotions attached
It's not all that bearable now!

I see her having sleepless nights
one after another
night by night
waking up to painful bruises
in her heart
for being treated like shit!

Could you not disrespect her atleast
If you cannot respect her at all?
Could you not hurt her
If you cannot give her happiness at all?
And
Could you not give her tears
If you cannot bring a smile on her face at all?

For her eyes are really tired of crying all the time now!

Deception.

You came like a flowing breeze,
soothed my burning soul,
balmed my open wounds,
and now that I want you to stay,
you say you just came by the way.

I look up in your eyes,
It tells me a million stories.
stories of defeat, stories of shame,
stories of many shattered walls of fame.
you blink, trying to deceive me,
but the door once opened can be entered anyday.

I look deeper in your eyes,
beyond those surfacing stories.
I see a sun blinding my gaze,
The gleaming sun shows me illusions,
I see mirage in the middle of a haze.

I forget the reality,
and start living in the illusions.
my world turns into a vast desert,
and I look upon you
my oasis, for solace.

But after walking miles after miles,
chasing you, like chasing my own tail.
A lightening strikes, and I realize,
my house has been ravaged,
my soul has been stolen,
my trust has been broken,
the drawers of happiness have been emptied,
and my love has been raped.

I want you to tell me,
All's not lost, everything's gonna be alright.
So I look around for you,
But you seem nowhere.
Far away, I can see your shadow,
disappearing at the end of the road.

I run behind you, trying to stop you,
hold your arms tight.
But every single time,
I fall on my face,
feeling like a ridiculous dime.

I hear somebody laughing on me,
It was a joke I didnt want to understand.
Fallacy was served to me on a platter,
And I tasted deceit, while sipping some wine.

I have this recurring dream.....

I have this recurring dream

A beautiful one with a gleam….. 

Where I swim with the clouds

And fly over the seas

I feel like an angel

With the wings of a geese!

The feeling is so surreal

As the eyes look through

The windshields of heavens

With a panoramic view

And, in that moment,

the blinding light shines

Like  a raging torrent,

it glazes the mirror rinds!

A deafening thud is felt

As self opens the eyes,

The dreams are now a blur

As dawn has cracked the sight!

A moment of sadness

And, then a moment of glee

What if days are dreamless

Nights are full, you see!

And then, when the clouds roar

And, the Sun slips away

The wait presumes again

With the self greedily wishing

for the lovely dream to stay

And then, it starts all over again,

I have this recurring dream

A beautiful one with a gleam…..

Sometimes

Some relationships are strange

Like ours,

Sometimes we are friends
Sometimes we are lovers
Sometimes we are just strangers to each other

Sometimes we can share so many things even in silence
Sometimes even many words don't say anything

Sometimes only "I'm there for you" is needed
Sometimes being there isn't enough
Sometimes "I love you" seems so true
Sometimes "Leave me alone" feels like a lie

Sometimes one hug from you makes the world seem alright
Sometimes even nicest gift from you doesn't bring a smile

Sometimes...in life..relationships are strange..

A Thousand words .... !

I look and I look for a thousand views
I search and I search for a thousand questions
I desire and I desire for a thousand friends
I hope and I hope for infinite love!

I need and I need a thousand help
I give and I give a thousand selfless support
I perform and I perform a thousand jobs
I seek and I seek for a thousand multiple opportunities!

At the end

I sit and I sit to count

Count and Calculate

How successful life has been!

Peace in mind and smile at face

is what gives the soul a new peaceful start.

Smita

What scares you off !!!!

What is it that scares you off.

Scares you off from asking the question.

Asking the question about life and things.

Life and things that matter to you.

That matter may make up your destiny.

And your destiny is in the controls of your hands and no one else’s.

No one else will be there tomorrow.

Tomorrow there shall be no time to make up for your mistakes.

Your mistakes then shall haunt you forever.

Forever you shall then regret of not asking that question,

The question which you would have wanted to ask then

Then maybe you could have been happy now

Happy and not scared

So what scares you off!

Smita

The charade ~ From a nomad's diary

 There are times when fury consumes

Like a colossal wave, it engulfs the soul

Then, the travesty of pretense resumes

Every time the heart takes over, its role

Rationale takes a backseat

As hate brims over the bowl

And then, the heart squeezes a little more

Why can’t there be more room for one’s own?

The maddening parody continues

Between the heart and the soul

There is no more room for absolution

Will the soul ever speak, for its own?

There are days when I wonder

Why is there no peace for the soul?

The answer it gives makes me ponder,

Will the heart ever forgive the errors of its own?

Mind Oh Mind, take a break please!! ~ From a nomad's diary

Mind oh mind, take a break please…..

With thoughts galloping fast, it is hardly at ease

There is not a minute to stop and think

Even if it were, it snaps in a blink

Like a drop in the ocean, the minute lives

Until the moment it seizes what it gives

There is no definite stop in this journey of life

that hurls more curveballs with seldom respite

But, isn’t it always about the ride one takes

where destination is never the ultimate aim?

Coz, it is the spices of life that must, one enjoy,

sans the qualms that be the part of this game…..

Thoughts

Things change, situations evolve
For the better, for the worst
that's a mystery to be resolved.

People come, People go
Some leave imprints, some just leave.
You like some, some like you
All that matters is, who genuinely lokes you.

Life is a book, with genre unknown
Mystery, romance or thriller,
with author also still to be known.

Keep moving, keep marching
is the myntra of life.

Thing that amuses one about it is
How can we meet our perfect one
in such a short time!

Smita

Mission 2014 !

Dream

Not die

Live

Not lie

Smile

Without scare

Work

Without fear

Think

Not Destroy

Create

Not try

 

 

I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD.........

The day I met you, 

I never thought that I could befriend you like I do now. 

I never thought I could talk to you for hours and hours together. 

I never thought I could stay awake all night talking to you. 

I never thought I could be so eager to talk to you again. 

I never thought I could be thinking of you all the time. 

I never thought I could be caring for you so much. 

I never thought I could be waiting for your appriciation everytime. 

I never thought your thoughts could affect me so much. 

I never thought I could feel upset about not talking to you. 

I never thought I could miss you so much... 

but honestly, I do. 

I do care for you. 

I do miss you when you are not around. 

I do wait for you to come back soon when you are gone. 

I do think of you each time I am alone. 

I do love you everytime even more. 

You make me feel so important and I am so proud to be a part of your life. 

I love every second of the time we spend together. 

Every mili-second with you creates a memory in my life. 

I dont know what is happening in my life right now, also how far is this going to go... 

Although I dont want it to end ever! 

I want it to go on and on forever...!!

Whatever I never thought I could, is all that I am doing now....!!!

P.S. - I wrote this poem almost 2 years back for someone, and now today when I was scurrying through my old notes, I found it, and it made me a little nostalgic! So here I am smiling, and letting you take a sneak-peak into my till-date-personal-diary-scribbings!!

Cheers!!

She's Dying.

Author's Note : I know this is my first post on DOV and it should be something really sweet, but I came across this today in my 8th standard rough book, and decided to post it here! :D

She's Dying.

She's tired of the lies she's heard all of them say,

She's lost, she just cannot find a way.

She's seen them all smiling when she was smiling too,

And then they spoke their mean words, turned their backs

When her life was going off the track..

She learnt the hard way, that nothing and nobody are permanent.

That sometimes life gives you a rude shock,

It calls for your tears, your pain, it drives you insane.

But now she knows who will be there for her, and who all wont.

Now she's aware of the sink holes in her life.

Her mood is down in the trash, in the bin,

She's sick of feeling that way within.

She's this close to giving in.

If you know what to do, help her.

Because she is trying, but she knows she is failing. 

She's broken on the inside, and she is dying!

Grammar sucks, but understand the meaning! :P

So yeah, this was what I'd written once upon a time in 13-years-ville. :P

RANDOMLY........

Randomly She Bites Her Lip, Hiding The Picture In Her Mind.
Randomly She Smiles, She Remembers Every Word He Said That Night.
Randomly She Stares At The Sky, She's Looking For The Star That They Shared That Night.
Randomly She Shivers, She Gets A Thought Of The Days That They Used To Fight.
Randomly She Cuddled To Her Pillow, She Misses His Feel She Knew It Was Just Right..
Randomly She Calls, She's Wanting To Hear Words Which They Shared All Night..
Randomly She Says Booo, She Wants Him To Get Surprised.
Randomly She Texts, Hoping He Would Respond The Same Way He Did Before,
Randomly She Cried, When He Didnt Care,
Randomly She Swore, When He Was Rude And Mean,
Randomly She Missed Him, Looking At Other Pairs,
Randomly She Loved Him, All The More Ever,
Randomly She Hated Him, For Leaving Her Alone,
Randomly She Waited, For Him To Call Back...
Randomly She Sat, Looking At Her Phone, Hoping A text Will Arrive, Stating, I Miss You Too, Please Come Back!