.....just the beginning!! (Part II)

"Is there someone else?"

She didnt reply. None of them spoke. The silence was killing her. It was peircing her throat and she couldnt breathe. His eyes were fixed on her. He knew what the answer was, but was waiting to hear it from her, thinking, she may change her mind, she may prove him wrong. He wanted to be proved wrong. He wished he was wrong and she slap him for his ugly thoughts. But she didnt. She just didnt say anything. Nothing at all. He waited. It felt like eternity. He felt like shaking her wildly so as to make her speak. The silence was suffocating him. He couldnt stand it any longer. He asked again....

"Is there someone else you've been thinking of??"

This time she did speak. 

"Yes..."  

It was a loud whisper. Loud enough for him to hear it. He wasnt shocked or sad. He felt nothing. Nothing. He felt numb. He had no feelings left. Just numb.

"Who is he?"

His voice had no emotions left now. It was just a voice. A voice stiff as steel. A lifeless voice.

"John..."

Another loud whisper. He nodded. Her eyes never left the ground. 

"Since when.....?"

"Last month. You know whenever I went to hangout with him...."

He nodded again.

"So.... I guess, now there is no reason for us to be together anymore."

"No."

This time her voice was not a whisper. It was shaky. It was as if she was trying to hold back the lump forming in her throat. Her eyes still fixed to the ground, tears streaming down her cheeks. She didnt move. The only movement in her body was the tears running through her cheeks. They were out of control now and she didnt bother to stop them. None of them made efforts to hide the pain they felt.

"I wish you all the best with him... hope you find true love with him."

She shook her head, tears still blinding her view.

"No...." She managed without breaking her voice. She continued,

"....he has a gf. They are together for 4 years now. I am not doing this to be with him...!"

"ohh.. okay..."

He was clueless now. Still, the fact that she had made up her mind to end their one year long relationship was enough for him. He knew she woudnt change her mind with pleadings or persuasions. It never worked with her. She always made her decisions, no matter how weird or clueless they were.

He concentrated at her again. She still looked the same. Beautiful, just like she had been when he first saw her. He wondered what went wrong. He knew he'll never know. He still tried thinking. He could never figure her out... and today was just the same! She was shaking now. Tears covered her face, but still she looked beautiful, pure, untouched! 

He drew a step closer and held her in his arms. She was still shaking. He wondered why was he so calm. He was breaking up with the only girl he ever loved, and still he was calm?! But then, thats how things had always been when she was around. He always managed to surprise himself when with her. She was now sobbing uncontrollably. He did not stop her, just held her in his arms. He wondered again, maybe this was the last time he was hugging her.

"I.. am.. sorrryyy......"

Her muffled voice brought him back to reality. He just held her more tightly, feeling still no pain.

"Dont you hate me??" Her eyes were bloodshot.

"No." He shook his head. Smiled at her.

"All I want to say is.... Just dont mess up your life like this! Please... "

She still saw the same love in his eyes. She cursed herself!

"I've already messed it up...! No more!"

He nodded.

"Come.. let me drop you home!"

She walked back to the car silently, her hands locked in his. She wondered what made her feel so much more closer to him than in the last one year! She couldnt figure it out. She didnt need a reason. She just felt closer to him now.

"Are you still gonna talk to me?"

He started the engine and looked at her. She got her answer. 

They had overcome the biggest barier in a relationship. They no longer needed words to express themselves. Even though they broke up officially, they were now bound by a much powerful force of the universe. They both knew it was not the end... just the beginning of a new relationship between them. A relationship which didnt need any explaination, any name, any expectations! It was something between them today that they couldnt achieve in the past one year!