"Sometimes it takes something really bad, for something really good to happen!"
She pondered over it, and just nodded with a smile. She was out of thoughts of her own but agreed to every single thought of his, not because it was HE who said them, but because it made sense. It was like, it was her thoughts flowing through his lips. She just stared at him.
He was amused, "Dont you wanna say something?"
She shook her head, "I like to listen to you!"
He blushed red. She forced herself to look away.
They were again sitting at Marine Drive today, doing nothing but staring at the sea and occasionally at each other. He being a nature-lover came here as often as he could, and she came here for reasons she herself could not define. Looking at him something stirred within her, but she knew that 'something' wasnt enough for everything that she wanted. Being with him cheered her up. He was on her mind all the time. Reading all her thoughts before she could open her mouth to say them.
"Do you want to walk on those stones?"
She was shocked. He always did that. She was just looking at the stones, thinking she wanted to be there and he said it!
Sitting on those stones suddenly took her in her past, those memories flashed by, she couldnt help it, they just came in any time these days. Just like the pop-up pages, they appeared unexpectedly, leaving her with saddening eyes burried in the earth and a lump in her throat. She wanted to run away from those memories, not because they were unpleasant or saddening, they were one of the most beautiful memories of her life, but because it reminded her of what she had left for something she could never have!
"Somethings bothering you?? yes yes, it is. Tell me what it is?"
"No, its nothing!"
She cursed herself! How could he read her mind. Was he a vampire? Like Edward...? Reading her mind?? But she was not Bella ofcourse, cz he 'could' read her mind!
"No, I am not Edward, but I could be if you want me to be! But plz dont be Bella, I'll end up eating you! You are too delicious for me to resist!"
He gave her an evil smile. She just stared at him. Shocked. Blank. How could he?? How could he read her thoughts just like that?? He had been doing them since long time but this time it was just 'bang-on-target'!!!
"Dont panic! I'll tell you what it is. Its very simple. The mind has a door which once opened can be read like an open book. And the door once opened can be walked in both the ways! So I have cracked your head and I know what you think. So dont panic, and change your expression, its frightening!"
They both had a hearty laugh over it. He was a physic, she thought to herself, a complete physic, and suddenly turning to him, scared he might read her mind again. But he was far away, somewhere she could never reach him. Although he was right besides her, she felt like she could not touch him now. He had drifted far away, in the ocean, and she was left behind on the shore. She wanted to be with him where ever he went, physically and mentally. She got jealous whenever he went away from her, physically and mentally. She thought of bringing him back by talking, but then suddenly realized that she was enjoying even the silence between them. It was so peaceful, so calm. She didnt need to talk, when with him. She just enjoyed the silence between them! He turned to her and asked,
"You enjoy the silence between us, dont you?"
"yes I do."
This time she didnt freak out. She knew he could read her mind, and there was no need to hide anything from him. She just could not. She could never hide anything from him. She closed her eyes and felt the breeze on her face and loosened her hair. She suddenly felt naked infront of him. Naked without being ashamed. Her mind and soul was standing naked in front of him. She had given her mind and soul to him. It no longer belonged to her, it were his now. She felt free. She felt good. She felt exhilarated.
"John... I wanna listen to your music. The ones you made!"
"Are you sure?"
"yes yes yes!"
She nodded enthusiastically. The music was great. Exhilarating. Taking her to a completely new world which she never dreamt of! She experienced emotions through his music which she had never felt! She wondered if he will ever play something for her, suddenly conscious of her thoughts she stopped thinking, afraid of him reading them again. She just listened... and listened to more songs. Songs after songs, albums after albums! She explored something she always dreamt of! Yes, she thought to herself, music was her solace! His music! She smiled quietly.
It was at night at home that she pondered over everything that was happening in her life. Her life was very abstract now, (people called it messed up, but she liked the word abstract!) just like her conversations with John. Anyone listening to them could never make out the head and tail of their conversations but they knew very precisely what they were talking about. Her life had turned just like their conversations... abstract! Anyone else looking at her life could never know what was happening or what she wanted, it was only she who knew them, who understood them!
She knew she wanted John in her life but she knew he could never be hers the way she wanted him to be. They were just friends, very good friends and they will remain just like that forever! Someone who provided solace to one-another in times of needs. Their needs were again abstact. Only they could understand their needs without words. Words could never explain what they needed or how they felt. Words always betrayed them. She felt like an alien survivng on earth, and him, another alien. But dont two aliens surviving on the same planet make friends? It was just that what had happened!