Love is...

Love, Its such a small word and is such a powerful feeling.
I never knew that I had the capability to love someone so much and be loved back more than I have ever expected.

In my past, I have been in what I though was love. It wasn't, now i know that for sure.It might have been very strong attraction, a lot of like, big infatuation but not love.

Love is when someone has tears in his eyes, in front of his family and friends, on his own wedding mandap, when he saw me cry in my father's arms.

Love is when he holds my hand tight, when he knows I might breakdown anytime while bidding good-bye to my parents.

Love is, when no matter how far, he comes to pick you up despite him having prior commitments.

Love is, when he calls 10 times a day, just to make sure you aren't lonely.

Love is when he wants you to go out independently in a new city, but still subtly tells you that he is there whenever I need him.

Love is fighting and making up over a cup of coffee.

Love is, when you cough in the middle of the night and he who is lying beside you is all alert and asks "you ok? need something?"

Love is, when the kitchen shelf bangs, and he comes running in to see if I am ok.

Love is, when he tries everything in his hands to make you comfortable.

Love is when, he tries real hard to plan surprises for you.

Love is when you know that he is there.

Love is that,silent side glances while he is driving.

Love is holding hands on the car gear.

Love is, laughing over stupid jokes.

Love is, keeping each other annoying animal names.

Love is, to see him smile when he sees his lunch box.

Love is, that warm hug on a cold night.

Love is, him wrapping a blanket around you just because you were "looking" as if you were freezing to him.

Love is, that smile he has pasted on his face, when he sees you. (Such smiles are reserved only for you)

Love is when you both act stupid together.

Love is, when  he books a ticket for your parents as a surprise for you, just because you said you are missing your parents.

Love is us.

Its a great feeling be loved by the person you love.

Mistake Revisited

“Okay…..Hmmm…Should I tell you one thing?”, he interrupted her.

She was busy thinking about what all was happening and was trying to cope up with his words when the sudden words surprised her.

“Okay, tell me “, she waited for his reply.

“Hmm……”, he still was in thinking mode whether to say it or not.

“Come on, tell me”, she insisted and planted a tax on his cheeks.

“I have read your blog post Mistake”.

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They had been collecting tax from each other for a while now.

She had said earlier in the afternoon that he needed tax from him for pulling her cheeks.

“You need to pay tax for this”, she said looking up.

“Okay, tell me what you want”, came the quick reply.

She was not ready but. She had said so in a rush but now she herself wasn’t sure of what to ask from  him. 

He was pulling her cheeks and she needed tax for that.

He loves doing that and she loves letting him do that.

So no question of asking anything in return was there but she had said something which now she herself was finding hard to explain.

“Hmm…nothing. What do I ask you now”, she said smiling.

“No, no. Tell me. I will pay the tax na”, he said smiling too.

“I …..don’t know”, she said, confused what to ask.

“Tell me… what you want. I will give”, he was comfortable in giving anything she might have asked, but she wasn’t sure what to ask from him.

He already had given her much of gifts, much of happiness, much of care, too much of everything that nothing flashed in her mind to ask him now.

“I don’t know….I…..Just asked and now I myself don’t know”, she said, looking in his eyes.

 And he pecked a kiss on her forehead.

He knew she is confused and this appeared to him as the most suitable tax, that could be given at the moment.

And another tax was then paid on the right cheek and then on her left cheek.

Tax was collected happily!

“Oh… God….you have read Mistake”, she said shyly and covered his eyes.

His face was in her lap and they had been talking about all their stuff accompanied by paying and collection of tax by both of them. 
New sprouts are really fresh.
She covered her face with her both hands. He pulled them away and faced her eyes.

“Yes, I have read it. I have read all the comments also.”, he grinned.

It was really a shock or a surprise for her, to know that the person for whom something not so good was written has been read by him.

“But….How did you find it? I didn’t give you it’s link. So….How did you manage to find it?”, This was indeed the million dollar question. She had hidden that blog post from her, as not to complicate things more between them.

“Hmm..I have read! I liked it. So…Now also is it a mistake?”, he asked.

“Yes, Now it’s a beautiful mistake”, and they kissed.

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Mistake stated her pain for coming up with his feelings for him in the first place, before him even. But no reciprocal of any such thing from his side surely broke her few days. But faking is what she’s best at! She managed and coped up with the situation. They guy was made to think, think and think, about the post, get a bit irritated and wonder why and what might be going in her mind.

She never knew this could happen! That he would somehow find this blog post of hers, but now she's happy that he has read it. She's glad that she wrote something like this!

She had stated it all as a Mistake but now she was happy more than ever as that mistake led to another mistake, The mistake of being together !

[The original mistake can be read here :  Mistake ]

P.S. : A, you know, a lot more is what I intended to write but somehow it's hard for me to concentrate on writing than thinking about you :P So, sorry, this might not be that long as you might have expected it to be. :) 
 

Smita

His wish....Her wish....!

Down she slipped one side of her dress.

And a kiss was imprinted on her shoulder.

Away moved her eyes, filled up-to the brim with shyness,

and she felt a stream of thunder and cold flowing down her body by the sensation of that touch.

The lips made their presence felt for some two minutes, but the Love that was felt in those two minutes was simply unexplainable!

Meeting at the hill top was his idea. 

Sometime alone together, away from all worries and noises of daily routine, was how he wanted to celebrate his day.

He had made a wish earlier that day. 

A wish that only she could fulfill.

He had asked for something.

Something that was a step bolder, but also a step closer to her.

All he wanted was, for her to trust him forever.

To make his wish true, was her wish.

As the plan to make him happy that special day, revolved around her.

And this what, a girl can ever wish !

She trusted him, more than anything.

She loved him, more than anyone.

The love between them was different.

Hence his wish needed to be fulfilled.

As the day was just not any usual,

Today was his birthday.

She knew she had to make his wish come true.

But how, was the big question in-front of her.

Some fears, some restrictions were the things holding her back 

from making the first move.

But the people in Love, always know how it express it all that well.

He had wished for a kiss.

And the kiss was made. 

Not in an objectionable manner to either or any of them!

No boundaries ,no rules were crossed. 

Love finds its way, it's just that at times you are bound to the Watch.

The smile on his face after the kiss showed, he loved her move.

And the shyness and boldness in her actions, showed she loved him more than anybody could do!

Love is sweet.

Love is pure.

Just give it a chance.

And the whole world will be yours!

O dil bewakoof !

Yea, I have a दिल , and my दिल  is बेवाकूफ़ !

  Every-time I see a good guy, my heart just starts jumping !! 

Okay not every second guy that I see, but every time I see a perfect guy, why does this बेवक़ूफ़ has to get so seriously involved in my love affair? Yes, my love affair! 

It's my life, my taste, my eyes, my senses that see that person and tells my mind and my conscious that that person is simply perfect for me and then my intellectual mind starts preparing for a plan to achieve the target but then this बेवक़ूफ़  comes into play and I get emotional :( I start thinking about all the possibilities of a proposal, even a friendship proposal posed in-front of that guy. 

Why is my दिल such a बेवक़ूफ़ man !

Okay okay, don't be so angry my little red pounding idiot heart.Let the readers also decide who is बेवक़ूफ़. You or me :P 

    This guy is my good friend. He's intelligent and is from my caste only. Our families know a bit about each other. He is polite. Smart to look at. He's funny and is always lightening up the environment. Has a very practical approach towards life and things. Is well spoken, well mannered. And loves enjoying life. He's tall. These are all the relevant things I look in a guy to see him in that ways.

Now coming to how he treats me. He's very open regarding things, be it about his ex or of his present crushes. At the same time, he treats me in a very protective and caring way. Never leaves a chance to meet me or talk to me. We used to chat for hours, sharing our daily stuff during holidays. He guides me, sometimes authoritatively, sometimes sweetly, be it on a personal of professional level. Always is concerned how I take my life and always want to hear out all the smallest details of the problems I face. In short, he's one of those first perfect guys I have met so far. 

Now, coming to my  दिल बेवक़ूफ़  part. My heart likes him but my mind argues that I am not the correct girl for him. I am not so lively, good to look at, fair like him and also I lag in educational level too. But then, this बेवक़ूफ़  just keeps on thinking about all the stupid possibilities this idiot can actually imagine. I feel so terrible at times when I meet him as a friend with brain treating him as one of well wisher's but this बेवक़ूफ़  keeps dreaming in the opposite direction, I am shy to say in what direction :P lol

Now coming to this second guy! Man, he drives me crazy ! He's just so sweet, so well mannered, so nice, so well spoken, so cute, so smart. Man! He's another perfect guy! He too is of my same caste, his family too has same traditions as that of mine. Infact, he lives totally the way we live. We just have so many similarities, be it in anything.

He's tall. Smart, educated, belongs to a nice family and also one of good friends. Cares so much for me when we are together. Never ever makes me feel low. He's always lightening up the environment. And the shocking thing is we have so many common interests. It's something that has never happened in 22 years of my life! 

He talks so honestly and frankly that whenever he speaks I only feel like listening to him, without uttering a word ;) He just looks so cute when he speaks. His talks are always so interesting to listen to, he's always cracking jokes, but he also praises the qualities he feels like praising. And this is the quality I like the most in him. He's just so innocent to talk to. Of-course he knows all the evils do's and dont's of today. He knows how to behave with a girl, how to tackle things, how to be Mr. charming :P

He talks wonderfully. He actually knows how to make my mood. He just cares  for me so differently. Man! I am so much getting trapped in his charm! Warns me about what not to do. Praises me like nobody has done before. I just feel so comfortable, lively and happy when he's around. He does makes me smile :)

Now, coming to the real confession. I like them both. No, wait. One more than the other. But I don't know whether they like me or not. :( And this is where my दिल  comes into scene and does all that बेवकूफी ! How am I supposed to tell somebody how much influenced my stupid दिल is with him. How am I supposed to get out of all this ! These two treat me like I have been never treated before and also like nobody treats a friend. Now, who's बेवक़ूफ़? 

Me or my दिल !